October Girl

you'll find her on the last back street in a town named Despair
on her tear stained floor,  lying in her prayer
October's gonna be a long month she says
and I don't know how I'm gonna make it through
the one that once loved me most don't care anymore
so I'm depending on you
I'm steeped in lonely music and my veins are chased with caffeine and rum

you're gonna find her a beauty and she'll always be
she's exposed sensitivity and lost inside a carnival of muted safety
her dreams strip and waltz through in broad open daylight
proud in their nudity
leaves her wishing for the strum of life
she's like summer thunder on a winter day

you'll find her dangling from her yesterday that she can't separate
doubt casts dark shadows on tomorrow
she loved
and was loved dangerously

she once decorated the arm of a man who only made her into a mirage
you'll find her borderline fantastically crazy
her brilliance is amazing
she knows she's forgotten,  just don't know how to forget
all is forgiven but she hasn't been yet

you'll find her at an alter, her tears on fire
heart flat lining but no one cares
she says yes when she means no
stays too long when its time to go
doesn't complain raise hell or Cain
puts up with desperation and only God knows

and they say let it go, just let it go
well who the hell are they and what do they know

you're gonna find her on that last back street
named despair
swallowing down another prayer
October girl , she's everywhere,  going nowhere