claustrophobic

my best friends forever flew away like birds
and I became to them as if I never were

repeating tracks of "everybody hurts"
entertains the sadness and it's amazing
how deep I want to go
until the pain trickles into a grainy web
a blurring kind of mind snow

but the music that once devoured me
and killed the aches of my days
is now just too sad to play

and when I'm lonely I say I'm not
cause I don't want you to come down
beneath the ceiling where I lay
where everything's too loud
and the darkness never fades

I have so much of all I thought
I ever wanted
but too much freedom
makes me feel claustrophobic