the night knows

dark holes we climb into never looking to see if there is another way
going the wrong way too long then the U turn in our mind
words fail, people fail corruption exists and foils our lovely plans
getting lost in the extreme busyness 
loneliness finds an exquisite calling card engraved for nights you won't sleep
warm memories seep into your room, breathing expands , breath runs away
we lie in cold loveless dirty raining beds of grief
the silent river carves its place aging us with sad young faces
no eraser
the futile sigh goes unheard, unloved in misery
dreaming in color, dying in sepia
walking in crowds alone
living unknown in living rooms that we call home
where love isn't love and freedom is an illusion
and we tell ourselves there is nowhere to go from here
so we write, we create, we dance alone creating circles that only the night knows
 

Ramble

the moon slipped between
the key to the clock was lost
nothing more needed
the loud thrashing
the rebel
burning both ends of the candle
vanilla lips, scent of snow
the storm dying to live
the dance denied will turn to ash
of volcano
her wrath at being robbed
the barter unfair, tasted bitter
the grey unfold
endless winter, sockless shoes
rants at God found no shelter
no gold, weary heavy, broken load
gone before arrival the bloom did not
survive
the silver girl who never learned
to fly, who only knew how to die
the bold, the blaze , the hurricane
strong, mistaken, forgotten, underestimated
lover of rain

little dramas

looking at the ending
a new beginning 
in a newer shade of light
never felt more myself 
when I was by your side

little dramas used to mean
no thing
but it gets kind of old
left alone out in the rain

you used to stain my cheeks
need no makeup for that
just the joy of you in the room
now I'm just a ghost of white
the color died
way back

winter left his mark in place
no shelter for that steel
that residue of you was long erased
by rage and overdue undue bills

little dramas, pretty pills
you would never dance with me
said you never will
need new words to throw at me
I'm trading mountains for new thrills
the house you crave to rule
you will never build
little dramas, indigo battlefields

tragedy

why do you have to break every piece of me
first to throw a stone and shatter everything
make me a tragedy
you're a thunderstorm on my face
words cut so I bleed
destroy one more part
steal another piece of me

my sadness takes root inside of me
sets me up for another senseless tragedy
I can't seem to leave here so I dream here
can't let go of pain that won't let go of me

I listen to the stillness
storm subsides, you're ruthless
fearless in the rubble I'm shattered in your eyes
fearless I will stand again
my mind's a mess
why must you tie my hands
drown my confusion like the rain
sleep with a charismatic kind of loneliness

I can't find where I left myself 
what is it, life
its not what it seems
dying beneath the skin that covers me

"13"

that line was too heavy cause
"13 doesn't know"
dreaming beneath the sky
witness to all your lies
buried the door, the key
"13 doesn't know anything"

rivers inside this girl
who wanted to hide
the plain, the pain
the unspoken denied
the wished for grey
hide me rain
"13 never knew anything"

13 dollars in the wallet
of your last day
13 before the year
mama went forever away
this dreamer if she had knew
would have ran
but...
"13 doesn't know anything"
 

rainy day lover

come to bed now my rainy day lover
we'll leave the day at the windowsill
let's embrace this crazy magic
give in to the toll of loves will
i won't forsake you in your darkness
but i always hunger for one more kiss

hush now, we won't trouble tomorrow
we'll let the day have its say
and i will never be sorry
i let you hold me this way

you and me are all that we need
so don't say anything
just follow my lead
let the rain sing fiercely
on our roof
i'll take everything you give me
that's the truth
i'll hold you till you're bold and strong
and you'll miss me before i'm gone

so come to bed my rainy day lover
leave the world at the windowsill
we'll embrace this crazy magic
give in to the toll of love's will
hush we won't borrow tomorrow
we'll let the day have its say
and you will never be sorry
you let me know you this way


+Lyrics I wrote about a would be imaginary lover, what would it be like to love without consequences. Fall in love unexpectedly on a rainy day.

The Better

you are the thirst in my blood
you are the better
like wine and chocolate
or dreams cloaked in never

your kiss will remember me
your days dream to repeat
the road that built us
disappearing in pure red
insanity

you are in my blood
dancing
never mind what they say
we're only mortal for a time
then we fly away

truth was survival
our miracle
we were never bitter
we just didn't listen
to their rules

silently we knew we'd differ
you are the heat in my blood
you are the better
like air, stars and breath
something that I never
 


+poetry