you left your beautiful sadness
to be gazed upon
they will try to tell your secrets'
blame your lover and his other
the snow that locked you into
a cold mood
the oven that will melt the pain
into a forever sleep
it wasn't morbid to you
your failures before
now your success
your emotional mis continuity
you must protect
what's the message, Sylvia ?
An older poem of mine, thought I'd share it here.
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Maybe it's time to be scared in a new way
I won't write about you...
I won't write about you...
I'm going to step out of this life book
where authorship has been delegated to those
that don't know me tell me that they know what's best
I long to fall into the dark space between stars and let
their light fill me up once more with luminescence
nullify the time that marked me as no one
Say goodbye to those that stripped me of my power
in my youth
those who left me orphan to love
to understanding and forgiveness
erase the iridescent crayon that left
unimaginable stain
Simply breathe again without guilt or regret
capture the space that is mine
be here fully alive without the ache of heart
and hard core shell of Ashe
Can you love me just enough so I know this journey
wasn't a complete waste ?
If not
I won't ask permission to become the butterfly
that you want to kill
Breaking free of fear, of being held in the vices of how others see us. That's not easy to do. Everyone wants to belong, to be at ease to be accepted. Sadly not always the case. If you understand this then when you are ready to break free from your personal chrysalis, spread your wings take flight. Freedom is yours when you are ready. Thanks for reading. Much love, Vanessa
I am still lingering
in the springhouse
still unraveling the twine
set for my feet
I am tied to the lighthouse
always incomplete
still missing the balloons' that
escaped our youthful
hands
still enthralled by music
still in love with a boy in a band
that rusty old bridge haunts me
random hitchhikers remind me
we're all one step away from
freedoms' or
one foot away from no more
breathing
I whisper to the incurable silence
that's between us...
always trying to catch up with you
but sadly my application to leave here
has been misplaced
and the elevator is unfortunately stuck
half of my heart is gone
the other half just waits to die...
immortal this silence between you and I
Hold your loves and hold them tightly, unless time be cruel and separate two beating hearts. No time to waste or regret, live fully, unashamedly & thrive. Good love, good life shouldn't be wasted ; time is ours but this once. Don't close your eyes, your heart to what's before you right now. Thanks for reading, love to all - Vanessa
breeze in the curtains
cinnamon whiskey waits
sky so full of love
it's blooming pink
it's 7:00
I wish I was asleep
the betrayals
they make sure you see
let them know
it doesn't matter
can't shake your identity
and you smile when
romance is beautiful
and you sleep when
it tires you
but you can dress up knowing
your glass is full
you just don't know
if it's full enough
to keep you there
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Here's hoping all who read this is in a wonderful place, that you are aware of all the happiness you deserve, desire is there for the taking. It just make take effort on your part to say yes to the worthy, no to the manipulation that will destroy the good places, people & opportunities waiting for you. Here's to exposing all the dragons that can't love us as we are. And here's to the ones waiting to embrace all we are flaws and all. Take care all. Appreciate each one of you - Vanessa
I was dying to live
gave all I had to give
born in a rainstorm
imperfection's demand
I was sinking from sight
falling into your hands
we burned our fingers
changed our mind
you were trying to hide
always trying to hide
got lost in a dream
betrayed by your kiss
waking up high
like it was a gift
you were a love - oh
what a love
wasting me to get it right
I was starving to feel
you turned out the lights
we were a movie
and tragically fake
perfected liars, falling down
in a forever rain
what a wasteland we built
shifting love into sorrow
our sky full of beauty into a
guiltied tomorrow
oh but I loved you
like an unplanned bullet
just a fool
a jewel in your crown
don't discard me yet
I'm still around
I'll be around....
Know your worth. In matters of love make them earn your heart. it's too easy to give yourself away. You are worth everything and more & you owe yourself a beautiful love, a love worth sticking around for.
thanks for reading, much love to all - V
