perfect rhythm

I'm waiting for a pill to work
to ease my mind and soothe my nerves
but I think it was made with caffeine 
I'm climbing crimson walls
when all I want to do is sleep

I've been walking in the rain
as if that would wash my sin away
everyone is going to a sunny somewhere
I'm where I've always been

I'm not sure I trust myself
when I talk I say too much
and I've lost count of names in stone
of those who've gone
but still rent rooms inside my love

And sad songs are the best songs
I've lived in some of them
but all my dreams have moved away
and I wish I could but I can't
stop this slow decay
of spending too much time staring at the rain

I just want to feel another's heartbeat
in perfect rhythm with my own
a seat for two on a midnight train
with speed that calms the fragile hearts
that always feel alone

daily monster

the night is raining

pain

and there's a shadow near my bed

leaning in too close to my face

trying to read my fear and 

get inside my head

my veins are hot and I am

overheating

my heart is tired of being caged

repressed

the burden has became a monster

in newsprint

and they're asking me

to believe in it

so

I am looking for a safe hiding place

for the piece of my soul that they think

is theirs for stealing

I refuse to be turned into a transparent

voiceless  ghost racing with the present

to find the past was a pretty printed

hook line that caught me in my eye

and made me doubt that

a hummingbird can sing

and a honeybee can fly

lonely boy

dear lonely boy
you tend  to invite hurt in
do your hands ever get lonely
from blending rebellion with diversity
you are always on edge 
knowing where you will never fit in

you are breath
you are poetry I indulge on the page
my hands get drunk
my mind swims in remembered
kisses

a match of blue, white flare
ache of a heartbeat on fire
I am busy
too many rooms you're not in
I'm trying to draw from memory
the homemade tattoos
you used to ink on your skin

you are too comfortable being alone
a walking, talking, dreaming boy
a to be written romantic lyric
with a
thirsty dream to be acknowledged
composing secrets into songs
writing down the sky you say
because freedom is only as close
as your fingers can reach
and you want to touch everything

your sadness trapped in the flutter
of a dragonfly's wing
silence taught you how to breathe
you know that all the cold winters 
and runaway graffitti will
never ruin the streets that belong
to your feet

dear lonely boy do you miss 
the way we used to arrange  
how our shadows lingered
into a story only two on earth
ever knew
can we keep that our secret ? 

double heartbeats

I saw beautiful visions with you
roads bathed in moonlight
as my white nervous hands ached
to roam in your hair
I saw windows that stared back
and scared me how intense you
were looking at me
the sidewalk felt strange beneath
my feet
words turned to sawdust
but my heart was electrically
alive
I wanted to tell the world to
turn the lights off
but I didn't dare disturb the
oneness of two lost in a starlit
world
I stood there breathing with you
living with you in
double heartbeats 

alive with love

I don't want to do time with you or anyone...
I want to do love

I want tangled hair
and kisses that leave
my lips itching for more

my flesh is human 
and woman

I want a photographic memory
so I will never forget
or complicate
the living, loving hour
of every sacred moment
imprinted in our cells
how we are buried 
in one another
alive with love