Girl Like Me

tell me one more time 
why I can't be your girl

that I'm just what all the boys 
will call a whore

then come make me 
who you want me to be

if you can never love 
a girl like me

well could you ever want me 
maybe one day

tell me now all I have to change

if I close my legs, wash my trashy face

wash all my dirtiness away

would I still be your perfect mistake

I imagine I'm in love 
as I roll around in sin

but I can't be the one for you 
cause I like to pretend

it seems I crave you more and more

I'm hungry for your touch

but I can't take what you won't give
if I'm not good enough

my clothes are too tight
I show too much skin

a girl like me could never make
a boy like you commit

you say it would be a sin
if you fell in love with me

you can't pretend I'm someone
you'll love eventually

so love come make me 
who you want me to be

and soon you'll learn to love 
a girl like me


lyrics to a song I wrote

Imaginary love

Imaginary lovers call and  I am addicted to the sin that they suggest
I am alone yet surrounded by sweetness
yearnings arrive and unveil a deeper darker side of me
Slicing away another piece of my soul
Youth has spent me, I walk slow
Even in July I am cold

Imaginary kisses
I listen for non existent voices
Then sleep dreamless
Now the pause
In between reality and imagination
I don't know my own name

July 8 2014